The reason is complex. Partly I felt being more realistic and practical after being in the US for three years and seeing others going around searching for jobs, which is not the best time. Another reason is tied to my fundamental personal philosophy that makes sense for the change--not being afraid of doing what I want to do, because there is nothing I could lose. I also feel that personal interest and real-life situations, making a good living, are two different things, and one do not necessarily have to live in the bubbles of the dreams and not getting real. I heard that when I told someone once that I wanted to study astronomy physics because it was intriguing. Now i understand how that feels. To get real.
I have been speculating how music can be real: music is everywhere, but why do people say that it's hard for a musician to make a living? It is hard in many cases. I've searched online, library,to get to know music education, music therapy, music and technology, music industry...I want to bring more wonderful music to use to make life better.
DON'T EVER FEAR THAT YOU MIGHT GET LOST DOING WHAT YOU WANT TO DO. A simple idea is all it begins with. Simple Ideas matter. As long as you go for it, and do not afraid of lose. Because all success come after failure. And it takes time.
